Entries from May 2004 ↓

I wrote this rambling entry on the day that I found my job hadn’t been approved but didn’t publish it and don’t know if I will or not. I’ve been thinking a lot about stuff and while I haven’t come to any conclusions, I know it could always be worse.

I was browsing Road Runner users from the Wisconsin area and came across this woman’s site. Don’t ask me how I ended up browsing Road Runner users from the Wisconsin (lots of deeply religious folks out there…) but I was.

Her site is the most depressing wedding coverage that I’ve ever seen and you she relates it all in a matter of fact manner. I guess she might be used to it or something so I’ve concluded that my life could be worse if I were her…

My life could also be worse if I were this guy though something tells me he must have had his share of problems before he made the news for having sex with a hen.

As for me, I’m becoming more comfortable with the idea of leaving tech and at the same time feel a renewed vigour to find something in tech. EI has a three week, full time course that is to help you decide on a career path and I think I’m going to look into that.

Maybe I should be doing something else. I can recall having these things before my switch to tech a) a life outside of work and b) a more balanced life and c) a decent pay cheque and good benefits.

I guess I did what I set out to do and I should be happy with that. The best part will always be the friends that I made and that won’t change no matter what I do to earn a living. I just have a hard time giving up even though when I step back, I find that my goals in life have changed a little.

The more I think about it, the more that course seems like a good idea…

I don’t know if this will be posted or not. I’m now in the position of not having a job after having been told that I did have a job and it’s the shits.

I’m so tired of the broken promises that is the technology game. I’ve loved my time in tech but it’s been as hard as it was fun. I guess it’s a good place for someone in their twentys but I’m at the point where I just want to work in a reasonably stable job for a decent wage.

All these tech companies that want the world in an employee and then offer a salary that is frankly offensive given the education required. If you mange to get in, you get tasked with working 60 hours a week and no overtime. Then when someone else doesn’t do a good job (read, management, sales, et al) you pay the price but they’re still there.

I was too late to the party. If only I had gotten started a year before I did, it would have made all the difference. I think this is the end of my technology career; it’s just not worth it any longer. Maybe that sounds dramtic but this feeling has been brewing since Responsetek.

I really dreaded going to work there and nearly quit several times. When I finally did quit, I told them that after Infowave I was going to do something else. Now maybe it’s time to follow up on that. A few of my friends have already left and a few more have plans to bail when they finish up their current jobs.

So now what? I have no idea. I love computers and I’d like to make a living working with them but I’m not sure it’s going to be an option nor a part of my future. It’s not the end of the world but it sucks, plain and simple.

Ideas are welcome…

Via the headhunter:

I just got out of a meeting and was informed that approval for this position was not granted.

Please extended my apologies to Mark. He had great enthusiasm for this position and I will certainly keep his resume handy.

Well, there goes three weeks of my life that I won’t get back…